I remember that year 2006, I had taken in with my second child, everything was going on well. Infact I would wake up at 4am so as to beat traffic to get to work on time. Little did I know that something was wrong with me!!
At 22 weeks I went for antenatal and right when the doctor took my BP , he was like “ you have been going about with BP this high in pregnancy and you didn’t know , if you had continued like that this week, you would have been brought in with either a convulsion or a stroke,I am sorry , you can’t go home again we have to buy a bit of time for the baby as such we have to manege this BP to help strengthen the lungs of the baby.”
So here was I , something unplanned, I stayed in for two weeks in that hospital and my BP couldn’t be controlled as such my family had me transferred to another hospital. In this second hospital, my BP still couldn’t be put under, I had become so big because I was retaining a lot of water. I was so big that Ikeja market ( Lagos, Nigeria) didn’t have things that could fit me, infact one of the sellers had to follow my cousin’s sister to the hospital to see how big I was!!! The doctor on seeing that they couldn’t get the BP down, resulted in injecting me to sleep long hours, but still each time I woke up the BP was down but went up again. Now at this point kidneys were getting affected.
Infact I remember my mum saying” I am struggling for the life of my child.
My younger sister in tears said, “
my sister is dying.”
My elder brother came in and on seeing me burst out into tears and couldn’t even sit.”
Yes, I was dying !!!!!
The next night the doctor came in to check there was no point injecting me to sleep, the BP just couldn’t be controlled and like I said some systems were beginning to give signals.
So at 27 weeks this little boy was birthed but I didn’t wake up on time after surgery either!
Later the nurses had to tell me told , “ we were praying for you to wake up so you will know that your son survived.”
Now I came face to face with my mortality, my own death, and all I was asking God for was MERCY!!! even in my subconscious!!!
Since then I have engaged in self reflection:
what is my life about?
How will I make my life count?
What can I do better?
What legacy do I want to leave behind?
What impact do I want my life to make?
See, at times coming face to face with our mortality doesn’t mean death it just means another chance to REDISCOVER YOU!
Is there anyone today who needs to rediscover Himself/ herself?
Whatever you are going through today, I want to encourage you that it is not unto death but that the name of Jesus might be glorified!!! But you got to make most of every opportunity given to you to LIVE!!
John 11:14
But when Jesus heard about it he said, “Lazarus’s sickness will not end in death. No, it happened for the glory of God so that the Son of God will receive glory from this.”
